Arthur Kade is an absolute moron. Yeah, I know, I'm not telling you anything you don't already know, but why do I bring this up now? Well, it's his idiotic use of phrases he obviously doesn't understand. "Kadealot will not be built in a day." Uh, dumbass, it's "Rome wasn't built in a day." You look so Italian I can't believe you didn't know that. "But I have to remember that the road is long and windy." OK, yes, if the road was windy it would be more difficult to travel, but only if it's a headwind, if it was a tailwind you could sail right along. Damn he's frustrating, but this post is telling us he's breaking down. He cried himself to sleep because of Entourage last night. THAT is enough to make me KNOW he's about 3 weeks away from offing himself. Can't come fast enough for me. More from the fucking deluded retard, Arthur Kadyshes...
God has blessed me with so many freakish and amazing gifts of nature, that sometimes I take time for granted, and because “The Journey” has exceeded all expectations in the mental schedule I have prepared, I have become spoiled in waiting for things to happen. I have always been the most impatient person on the face of the Earth, and this is why my leg is always shaking (Besides all the Red Bull and NO2), and I can’t sit still or sleep, and it’s also why I have to also take a step back, relax myself, and remember that “Kadealot” will not be built in a day, but with all the amazing stuff happening, I should be grateful to god for allowing me to live and create my dream, my way, and prove to myself and the world that the impossible can happen. It’s s hard not to make this about money or fame because I have or will have both, but it’s about doing what you love and doing it the way where you don’t compromise who you are and believe in.
Last night while watching Entourage (Best episode ever), I found myself feeling so many different emotions that is was almost overwhelming. I had people over watching it with me so I kept all of them in, but once they left, I went to bed and started just crying. I Have probably cried less than 15 times my whole life, and most people who intimately know me will tell you that I am the most headstrong and strong willed animal on the planet, and hate showing people weakness or sadness. I grew up with my grandmother shouldering the load of taking care of a sick woman, putting myself through college, and making my way in the world without asking one person for help, and people have always had various opinions of me, but they have always respected me. When I was a guest speaker for my old company at the Hartford market group, I spoke in front of 300 people for 3 hours and one man in his 50’s wrote the GVP and called me, “The most talented and driven young man he has seen in 20 years of being in the corporate world”, and everyone thought I was going to run the company one day and take it to never been before levels. Sometimes I wonder what could have been because I was so gifted at what I did, but it stopped making me happy and became a job, and that’s where I knew it was over.
Last night, while Vinnie and Johnny Drama (I have so many people call me “The Real Life Vinnie Chase” and my life “The Real Life Entourage”) were on the plane about to head to Italy for his movie, all I could think about was, “I am ready for that to be ME already. I am so tired of waiting and waiting. I want it now, I have given so much to be that guy, to live that dream, to do what he was chosen to do. I don’t want to wait anymore”. That’s why I went to bed crying. This road is so long and so tough, and even with constant therapy, there are so many emotions that I bottle up inside to not let negative energy distract me, but watching that, and Eric propose to Sloane, made me remember that I am human and not just The Brand or The Corporation all the time, and if I don’t let it out then I will burn out and die inside. Being The Brand is something only Arthur Kade can live and there is so much going on that I just want to fast forward my life 3 years and be on that plane flying to film a hit movie like Vinnie, and know “The Journey” was a success, but I have to remember that the road is long and windy, and the experience is just as valuable as the result.
After I relaxed, I just said thank you for everything that is going on in my life (I am waiting to be able to make the next BIG announcement, and it’s driving me crazy that it’s taking this long to do), and decided that in between my crazy day today of scene study (I think my partner and I will do the scene of E and Sloane with him proposing from last night), booking auditions (I have 5 over the next 2 weeks booked), and working on “Brand Stuff” (It looks like I am getting my own I-Phone Application which my fans around the world will love and other business/celebrity related stuff), I would stop by synagogue and be a “Good Jew” and pray for the next steps of “The Journey” (I was telling a girlfriend today, “Look at the life I get to live. I am a celebrity, I don’t depend on anyone for money, I am a fashion trendsetter, a national socialite who parties and associates with the top of the entertainment world (”The Biz”), a working successful actor, and most of all happy, and yet all I could think about last night was what I haven’t done yet. What a waste of energy that could be used for furthering “”The Journey”", and she agreed, and the Short I filmed on in June should be edited and done shortly, and I am filming as the lead on another short for a local director possibly this week.
Here are pictures and videos from my day at “The Italian Festival” (I felt so at home because everyone there thought I was Italian because of my look, color, and nose, and even though I love my Russian Heritage and how unique it makes me, I feel like I am an honorary celebrity son of the Italian community now).
“Don’t ever be scared of the next step, because there is no right or wrong, there is just “”IS”"”….Arthur Kade…10/05/09
What's up with Philly trash and their love of stupid t-shirts?